My Valentine's day

As you guys know... this year's valentine's day fall on Lunar new year and is on a Sunday too!.. So, our date began by having our breakfast at mac donalds... before going to church...!! Then we head to church .. and to his grandparents'place... by the time we reached granny's place.. everybody seems to have left!! So we missed them instead.. but luckily grandpa is at home.. hehe.. so we loiter there for few hours lo.. 

Then we head to canopy... was a very romantic place.. nice and not forgetting the food is good too.. 

hihi... time passes real fast..!! cny is round the corner already...!! this time round the cny is kinda different from the rest of it as this year it falls on valentine's day as well.. or should i say the v day is on chinese new year instead... so what's the plan then for u guys?

as for me, my family is not here with me.. will only be back after my work which is so much after chinese new year... meanwhile will still celebrate my cny  and v day with my bf!! hmm... will b busy on that day i guess.. haha.. anyway... to me cny is just another day with lots of relatives... haha..

as for v day... this is something real special... never had i celebrated it... so this is the first time.. i hav tried to check out so many places and things to do from online... and finally i found tis place 'Canopy'...with a very nice scenary... hope is really wat it advertised.. y m i planning all this instead.. first of all, this is my first v day with my love one.. plus he is too busy to plan..so being an understanding gf.. i'll have to do all these lo...!!

hehe.. that's all for this time round.. hopefully i'll have an unforgetable first V day....

A brand new year!! 2010

Happy new year ppl!! hehe!! plan ur new year resolutions already?? me?? i done le.. is the same old one in 2009 ... haha!!! well, actually didn't really met my 2009 resolutions. so will continue with the same one til goal met.. hehe!!

today is the first day of 2010.. myself, my dear and jolene went to east coast park for cycling and spend quality time together.. it was pretty tired.. but was real fun.. having someone u love; spending time with one another is just .... the feelings was good...

not forgetting... Yesterday.. the end of 2009 and the beginning of 2010 when the clock strike twelve.. myself, my dear, nazir and nisha were together at city hall/ raffles area for our count down after dinner at swensen in plaza singapura.. the crowd was scary.. we needed to squeeze ourselves to get to a nice spot and squeeze ourselves out after count down.. i was thinking why and how do i came to this place and why why and why... was so tired.. but when the clock strike twelve... the fireworks was the answers... it was so amazingly nice... it was my first time counting down to a brand new year with my love and the fireworks was just so close and so beautiful.... it indeed worth waiting for the count down and being squeeze here and there!! hehe..

I am so touched!!

A surprised from my beloved!! I am really touched by his acts!! It nevered cross my mind that my dear is so sweet... besides the swarovski cross, I was also touched by the small little card attached.. It really mean so soooo much!!'This token is nothing but my love and appreciation for you!!' This is the best x'mas of all... hehe..

Looking back!! Time passes real fast!! is already one and half year we are together!! I really treasure every moments we are together and I thank God that he is 'the one'.. I thank God for His faithfullness and goodness that He has blessed me with him..

Random

 Women... Is sooooo complicated.Being one, I myself also find it complicated.. or just me?? Learned something online.. when a woman says 'Nothing' does not really mean nothing... is just something but yet for you to really explore what is that 'Nothing'... otherwise, it'll then end up with 'Whatever'.  This is just some point that I do agree with totally....

Despite knowing this, why guys just like to ask this ' Must be something instead of nothing, but what is the something??' please better not ask when you already know that what is the 'Something'.. and just either let it be or you do something bout that 'Something'. Complicated huh?? Is actually not that complicated as it is. seriously...!!! there are only two solution as I said earlier on, if you really care bout that 'Nothing' then jus act on it.. do something bout it to please her.. otherwise, just leave it as 'nothing' ... or else that ' Nothing' will either end up with an argument which i think nobody will like it or.. it'll ended up with someone crying..

Lets talk bout guys then... seriously speaking... i dun really understand what they are thinking... or mayb just mine.... yup... is good to plan every steps that we take.. but sometimes plans changed.. due to the fact that man changed, the heart changed, the desire changed, the focus changed...

Marriage, marriage and still marriage.... think this is something a woman always wait for or should i say desired for.. having their own family ;starting from just two different individual that who were not related initially but yet ended up having their own family... (provided that the guy is the RIGHT one). Marriage to a woman is jut the starting of their life...but to guys?? What is Marriage????

when i was young, I always imagine my dream proposal, my Mr Right, my dream house, my wedding and etc... even until now... these thoughts still there.... anyway.. all these are just my own imaginations... my advice was... try not to put too high an expectations on everything... it'll make ur life easier... will not be disappointed if no expectation... real life is different de..

something i read!!

A True Life Reflection............


i got this from a forwarded mail.. think that is really nice to share...

get your tissues ready


4 years ago, an accident took my beloved away and very often I wonder, how does my wife, who is now in the heavenly realm, feel right now? She must be feeling extremely sad for leaving a husband who is incapable to taking care of the house and the kid. 'cos that is the exact feeling that I have, as I feel that I have fail to provide for the physical and emotional needs of my kid, and failed to be the dad and mum for my kid.


There was one particular day, when i had an emergency at work. Hence, I had to leave home whilst my child was still sleeping. So thinking that there was still rice leftovers, I hastily cooked an egg and left after informing my sleepy child.With the double roles, I am often exhausted at work as well as when I am home.. So after a long day, I came home, totally drained of all energy. So, with jus a brief hug and kiss for my child, I went straight into the room, skipping dinner. However, when I jumped into my bed with intention of just having a well-deserved sleep, all i heard and felt was broken porcelain and warm liquid! I flipped open my blanket, and there lies the source of the 'problem'.... a broken bowl with instant noodles and a mess on the bedsheet and blanket!


Boy, was I mad! I was so furious that I took a clothes hanger, charged straight at my child who was happily playing with his toy, and give him a good spanking! He merely cried but not asking for mercy, except a short

explanation:
"Dad, I was hungry and there wasnt anymore leftover rice. But you were not back yet, hence I wanted to cook some instant noodles. But i rememberedyou reminding me not to touch or use the gas stove without any adults around,hence i turn on the shower and used the hot water from the bathroom to cook the noodles. One is for you and the other is for me. However, I was afraid that the noodles will turn cold, so I hid it under the blanket to keep it warm till u return. But I forgot to remind you 'cos I was playing with my toys...I am sorry Dad..."



At that moment, tears were starting to run down my cheeks...but I didn't want my son to see his dad crying...so I dashed into the bathroom and cried with the showerhead on to mask my cries....


After that episode, I went towards my son to give him a tight hug and applied medication on him, while coaxing him to sleep. Then, it was time to clear up the mess on the bed. When everything was done and well past midnight, I passed my son's room, and saw that he was still crying, not from the pain on his little buttock, but from looking at the photograph of his beloved mummy....


A year has passed since the episode, I have tried, in this period, to focus on giving him both the love of his dad and mum, and to attend to most of his needs. And soon, he is turning seven, and will be graduating from
kindergarten. Fortunately, the incident did not leave a lasting impression on his childhood memories and he is still happily growing up.

However, not so long ago, I hit my boy again, with much regrets. This time, his kindergarten teacher called, informing me of my son's absence from school. I took off early from work and went home, expecting him to explain.But he wasnt to be found, so I went around our house, calling out his name and eventually found him outside a stationery shop, happily playing computer games. I was fuming, brought him home and whack the hell out of him. He did not retaliate, except to say, 'I am sorry, Dad'. But after much probing, I realized that it was a 'Talent Show' organized by his school and the invite is for every student's mummy and that was the reason for his absence as he has no mummy.....



Few days after the caning, my son came home to tell me, the kindergarten has recently taught him how to read and write. Since then, he has kept tohimself and stayed in his room to practise his writing, which I am sure, would make my wife proud, if she was still around. 'cos he makes me proud too!



Time passes by very quickly, and soon another year has passed. It's winter, and its Christmas time. Everywhere the christmas spirit is in every passer-by...xmas carols and frantic shoppers....but alas, my son got into another trouble. When I was about to knock off from the day's work, the post office called. Due to the peak season, the post master was also on an edgy mood. He called to tell me that my son has attempted to post several letters with no addressee. Although I did make a promise never to hit my son again, I couldn't help but to hit him as I feel that this child of mine is really beyond control. Once again, as before, he apologized, ' I'm sorry, Dad' and no additional reason to explain. I pushed him towards a corner, went to
the post office to collect the letters with no addressee and came home, and angrily questioned my son on his prank, during this time of the year.




His answer, amidst his sobbing, was : The letters were for Mummy.My eyes grew teary, but I tried to control my emotions and continued to ask him: " But why did you post so many letters, at one time?" My son's reply was: " I have been writing to mummy for a long time, but each time I reach out for the post box, it was too high for me, hence I was not able to post the letters. But recently, when I went back to the postbox, I could reach it and I sent it all at once..."



After hearing this, I was lost. Lost at not knowing what to do, what to say.... I told my son, " Son, mummy is in the heavenly kingdom, so in future, if you have anything to tell her, just burn the letter and it will reach mummy. My son, on hearing this, was much pacified and calm, and soon after, he was sleeping soundly. On promising that I will burn the letters on his behalf, I brought the letters outside, but couldnt help opening one of the letter before they turned to ash.

And one of the letters broke my heart....

Dear Mummy,
I miss you so much! Today, there was a 'Talent Show' in school, and the school invited all mothers for the show. But you are not around, so I did not want to participate as well. I did not tell Dad about it as I was afraid that Dad would start to cry and miss you all over again. Dad went around looking for me, but in order to hide my sadness, I sat in front of the computer and started playing games at one of the shops. Dad was furious, and he couldnt help it but scolded and hit me, but I did not tell him the real reason.

Mummy,

everyday I see Dad missing you and whenever he think of you, he is so sad and often hide and cry in his room. I think we both miss you very very much. Too much for our own good I think. But Mummy, I am starting to forget your face. Can you please appear in my dreams so that I can see your face and remember you? I heard that if you fall asleep with the photograph of the person whom you miss, you will see the person in your dreams. But mummy, why havent you appear?




After reading the letter, I cant stop sobbing. 'cos I can never replace the irreplaceable gap left behind by my wife.....


For the females with children:
Don't do so much overtime. If you cannot finish the work, it must be some kind of problems within the company,and it is not your sole problem. Feedback to your boss. Endless overtime may not necessary be the answer to the problem. Take care of your health so that you can treasure and take care of your little precious.





For the married men:

Drink less, smoke less, cos nothing can replace your good health, not even business nor clients.
Try thinking this way, are you able to work till your clients are totally dependent on you? or your boss is totally dependent on you? In this society, no one is indispensable. Take care of your health, so that you can take care of your little precious and your loved ones.




For those singles out there:
Beauty lies in loving yourself first. With confidence and loving yourself, you will see the beauty in other things around you. You will be able to work better and happier. Don't let your health be affected by your work or
your boss, so nothing matters more than your well being.

ups and downs...!!

i was depressed for quite awhile i guess..!! due to some funny and unreasonable remark made from my colleagues..!! i remembered i was once so energetic, loving my job so much... but yet.. i was so dissapointed after knowing that i m not good at all.. ppl jus like to pass comments (for those that r frank enough i guess) but others will jus continue to gossips around..

is it a sin to even be working with ur loved one?? y can't they jus take it as if we r jus friend.. i really dun understand.. !! y ppl just like to talk and put ppl down jus like that.. is not that we dun work professionally.. WORK is WORK.. this has always been since we were jus friend!!can't they see??

leon always comfort me .. saying that- let them say wat they wanted to.. jus ignored them will do.. so long we know is US not THEM..instead... but.. , being me.. i still feels no matter how much i choose to ignore.. crying to myself and to leon is always what it ended to be.. !!

i finally have decided to take up some new skills in order not to think so much after so long.. !! here goes the ups..!!

taking up the swarovski woven watch course -it took almost a day in learning it.. been thru making it and taking it out. beads up and stuff like that.. wowoooww!! is not very easy initially.. but once i master the skills.. i enjoyed doing it.. and showing it to others my collections as well.. hehe.. i loved doing it to the extend of went to search for the cheapest beads, when to search for the watch faces and etc!! was never easy.. and leon was and is still my greastest supporter so far.. haha!! thanks leon.. !!